Mental Health Mondays: Molested-The Aftermath
I'm disgusted that I even have to write this blog. It's one thing that I never
thought I'd have to do. I'm not really doing it for me. I'm doing it for all
of the victims out there who've experienced this kind of treatment and degradation.
People need to know they are not alone when these things happen. And I will be
there to talk or listen to anyone via my social media accounts. No one should go
through this alone and I want to make sure that I can be that support for someone.
Links are below for the UK and the US, as those are the countries that I have the
most views.
The other day arse-face came to visit (my uncle) my granddad whilst I was
around baking for him for the week. Granddad not, arse-ace. Though in this situation,
the name could be interchangeable. Anyway, I made the comment that I didn't want to
see my uncle and my granddad was like, "See him or not, I don't care." And I retorted
with, "I'll never forgive him for what he did." Let's stop here. I should mention that I
did eventually tell my nan and granddad that arse face's wife's first ex-husband had
dropped me outside a pub and tried to get me to have sex with him. It was a few years
later but I did. Back to where we were. "I don't care what he did or didn't do." So I attempted to try and remind him of what we talked about literally only a year, no not even a year ago. "Remember what he did to me?" "I don't want to hear about it. I don't care." He wasn't angry or sad. He just wanted to go down and greet arse-face who was on his way over. That
hit me with the force of a rock. He knew what my uncle had done. Protecting his mate,
the man who abused me and threatened and told me not to go to the authorities or there
would be hell to pay. Still, my granddad takes his side? What the everlasting fuck is this?
And why the fuck did he just walk away from me? To welcome that fucking scumbag? I'm so
angry right now I'm having a hard time even typing this.
I sat there in anger, not sorrow or shock. I was angry that he once again but a piece of shit
before me. And why? I never get my answers. Am I that low on his totem pole? Or does he just
want me around so I can help him out? I should have smashed them both across the face as they
sat in the kitchen. I'm still angry as fuck. How could someone just "forget" something like that? Or
choose to ignore something like that? I wanted to just end them both right there. I wouldn't feel badly about it. It's just justice being served. I think it's fucking disgusting and that they both should be hung. (Well, we can't do that here no death penalty.) Of course, arse-face ignores me when he thunders through the kitchen to kiss his mum's arse. It's disgusting the show he puts on. And I know it's fake and it pisses him off that I know and I'm not conned by his bullshit. Him and his slag wife. And they want to judge me? Bring it the fuck on, caravan park boy. What do you got? No qualifications, a wife who's slept with all your mates of yeah, and you're scamming the dole? Well, we'll see about that last one. Maybe that won't be true anymore. And what do I have? Education, good job, travelled the world and had more fine babes then you'll ever think of having. So, suck a wiener sit and spin. 🖕🏻 And if you wanna hide behind daddy, fuck off out of my face. Put on your big boy pants and come see me. You know where I am. You get me?
Links are below for the UK and the US, as those are the countries that I have the
most views.
The other day arse-face came to visit (my uncle) my granddad whilst I was
around baking for him for the week. Granddad not, arse-ace. Though in this situation,
the name could be interchangeable. Anyway, I made the comment that I didn't want to
see my uncle and my granddad was like, "See him or not, I don't care." And I retorted
with, "I'll never forgive him for what he did." Let's stop here. I should mention that I
did eventually tell my nan and granddad that arse face's wife's first ex-husband had
dropped me outside a pub and tried to get me to have sex with him. It was a few years
later but I did. Back to where we were. "I don't care what he did or didn't do." So I attempted to try and remind him of what we talked about literally only a year, no not even a year ago. "Remember what he did to me?" "I don't want to hear about it. I don't care." He wasn't angry or sad. He just wanted to go down and greet arse-face who was on his way over. That
hit me with the force of a rock. He knew what my uncle had done. Protecting his mate,
the man who abused me and threatened and told me not to go to the authorities or there
would be hell to pay. Still, my granddad takes his side? What the everlasting fuck is this?
And why the fuck did he just walk away from me? To welcome that fucking scumbag? I'm so
angry right now I'm having a hard time even typing this.
I sat there in anger, not sorrow or shock. I was angry that he once again but a piece of shit
before me. And why? I never get my answers. Am I that low on his totem pole? Or does he just
want me around so I can help him out? I should have smashed them both across the face as they
sat in the kitchen. I'm still angry as fuck. How could someone just "forget" something like that? Or
choose to ignore something like that? I wanted to just end them both right there. I wouldn't feel badly about it. It's just justice being served. I think it's fucking disgusting and that they both should be hung. (Well, we can't do that here no death penalty.) Of course, arse-face ignores me when he thunders through the kitchen to kiss his mum's arse. It's disgusting the show he puts on. And I know it's fake and it pisses him off that I know and I'm not conned by his bullshit. Him and his slag wife. And they want to judge me? Bring it the fuck on, caravan park boy. What do you got? No qualifications, a wife who's slept with all your mates of yeah, and you're scamming the dole? Well, we'll see about that last one. Maybe that won't be true anymore. And what do I have? Education, good job, travelled the world and had more fine babes then you'll ever think of having. So, suck a wiener sit and spin. 🖕🏻 And if you wanna hide behind daddy, fuck off out of my face. Put on your big boy pants and come see me. You know where I am. You get me?
This was just another fuck you in the long list of fuck yous that sum up my existence.
Another little reminder that I'm not worth it. Another hammer that sinks the nail in
deeper. Another little piece of agony that has settled into the base of my ribs.
They asked me how I was. And what I offered them is a cryptic smile and deceit. They didn’t get a real answer because they didn’t ask a real question. Maybe if they weren’t being paid to ask me things, I would be more apt to open up to them.
Support Links
UK
https://www.victimsupport.org.uk/crime-info/types-crime/rape-sexual-assault-and-sexual-harassment
http://rapecrisis.org.uk/
http://www.nhs.uk/livewell/sexualhealth/pages/sexualassault.aspx
http://thesurvivorstrust.org/
US
https://www.rainn.org/statistics
https://www.nsopw.gov/en/Education/HelpSupport?AspxAutoDetectCookieSupport=1
https://victimsofcrime.org/help-for-crime-victims/get-help-bulletins-for-crime-victims/bulletins-for-teens/sexual-assault
I will be interviewing a therapist this week and will have her thoughts and answers on sexual assault and mental health issues. Her website and contact information will be linked in the upcoming blog.
LINKS
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/AnjaAbsinthe
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/anjathesickboy/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/ichliebebillah
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCMcgrUtOSAkgNUlchw6NpZw
Please like, follow or subscribe!
That way I can gauge if I should be doing less or more with you guys.
It will also help me to track where to go for tour hang-outs.
The tours just aren't me going out to places and taking photos and whatnots.
It's me trying to show you that like or support my work that I'm so thankful that you do.
It's hard for me to get out there and do it because of my anxiety and sometimes the bipolar
episodes I suffer from. I do it to try and give back. It really bothers me when some of you guys
joke around and saying it's some kind of joke or I'm showing off the places I'm going. That's not the
case. I want to share these adventures with you and have you share yours with me. This isn't the time that I wanted to share that, but I needed to get it out as I'm in the process of planning another tour.
Another little reminder that I'm not worth it. Another hammer that sinks the nail in
deeper. Another little piece of agony that has settled into the base of my ribs.
They asked me how I was. And what I offered them is a cryptic smile and deceit. They didn’t get a real answer because they didn’t ask a real question. Maybe if they weren’t being paid to ask me things, I would be more apt to open up to them.
Support Links
UK
https://www.victimsupport.org.uk/crime-info/types-crime/rape-sexual-assault-and-sexual-harassment
http://rapecrisis.org.uk/
http://www.nhs.uk/livewell/sexualhealth/pages/sexualassault.aspx
http://thesurvivorstrust.org/
US
https://www.rainn.org/statistics
https://www.nsopw.gov/en/Education/HelpSupport?AspxAutoDetectCookieSupport=1
https://victimsofcrime.org/help-for-crime-victims/get-help-bulletins-for-crime-victims/bulletins-for-teens/sexual-assault
I will be interviewing a therapist this week and will have her thoughts and answers on sexual assault and mental health issues. Her website and contact information will be linked in the upcoming blog.
LINKS
Facebook: https://www.facebook.com/AnjaAbsinthe
Instagram: https://www.instagram.com/anjathesickboy/
Twitter: https://twitter.com/ichliebebillah
YouTube: https://www.youtube.com/channel/UCMcgrUtOSAkgNUlchw6NpZw
Please like, follow or subscribe!
That way I can gauge if I should be doing less or more with you guys.
It will also help me to track where to go for tour hang-outs.
The tours just aren't me going out to places and taking photos and whatnots.
It's me trying to show you that like or support my work that I'm so thankful that you do.
It's hard for me to get out there and do it because of my anxiety and sometimes the bipolar
episodes I suffer from. I do it to try and give back. It really bothers me when some of you guys
joke around and saying it's some kind of joke or I'm showing off the places I'm going. That's not the
case. I want to share these adventures with you and have you share yours with me. This isn't the time that I wanted to share that, but I needed to get it out as I'm in the process of planning another tour.
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