10 Years
So much has happened in 10 years. I really can't fathom that a decade has passed. Another decade. Soon I will be entering my third decade alive. It doesn't really compute. In 10 years I've done so much. In 10 years I've done fuck all. It's almost a balance scale of accomplishment and bullshit. I'm not really sure how to view the past 10 years. The years have both been amazing and devastating. I was an adult through a whole decade already.
During the past 10 years, I've completely modified my body, I came out as transgendered, finally came to terms with my ever confusing sexuality (I'm thinking I might do a blog on that,), wrote 9 books (two of which I've discontinued), created a merch line to sell my art designs/ travel photography and I've been to 25 countries. As I look back on these accomplishments, it's bittersweet. I'm not at the place that I want to be in my life. I'm still struggling in ways I thought I'd have overcome or outgrew. I'm starting to work on things, taking different approaches. These are the good parts I'm talking about.
I've tattooed myself so much that I almost have a complete bodysuit. And to think, I started the decade out with three little tattoos. Now, look where we are! It's hard to imagine myself without tattoos, or I should say this many tattoos. I was so naked back then. I see photos of myself in the various stages of being tattooed, working on my sleeves, my stomach, my chest and it doesn't even look like me. I don't see these images as me, even though I'm aware it is me. During the past 10 years, I also pierced myself. Many of the piercings I've since taken out; my dahlia piercings, my philtrum, both nostrils, my septum. I've kept all my tongue and ear ones, as well as my lip, eyebrow, nipples and my downstairs. I've started transforming my body in new ways, growing into the man I am inside.
I've lost and gained so many people in my life. Paula, Bill, Anja. People I loved deeply and thought I had a future with them. Paula turned out to be a humiliating joke, as did Bill, but Anja. There was something there that was pure magic. She's been gone 6 years now and part of me just wants her to come back. I know that's completely selfish of me. Maybe now she won't be in complete agony anymore. That's what I think about when the idea of missing her comes up. She will always be a part of me, my pen name came from her because I just wanted her to see how important she was to me. I know she knew that.
I met Puff and fell for him in some of the worst ways. I'm addicted to his bullshit. He makes me feel both alive and dead. He's the perfect balance of chubb, cheek and cunty. I've never wanted anyone like this before. I'm not afraid of what my feelings for him mean. He's helped me build up who I am over the past 3 years and he's the best person I ended a decade with. He encourages me. He pushes me. He destroys me. He builds me. He's my everything, the one person who never fails to turn me into nothing. He's a blessing and a curse.
It's been a wild year for me 2019. I made some great friendships, lost some shitty friendships. I'vee learned a few things about myself and some hard truths about those around me. I'm not the same person I started the year as, nevermind the decade. I've grown so much in the past 10 years. I'm a full-grown adult. I've got ao many experiences under my belt that it feels longer than 10 years have passed. I've battled mental illness, almost died several times, overcame physical pain and broke down barriers. Maybe I'll be able to do better in this decade.
Check out my current works:
You can find my work on Blurb, Lulu and all Amazon sites. If you're unable to order a physical copy of a book or a digital copy of a book, please reach out and I can sort out any difficulties. In that instance, I will have to be paid via Paypal (ask for details) you will pay through the Goods & Services option so you have buyer protection and your order will be shipped out to you via the method/book version you are interested in. When ordering this way, please include the version off of what site (there are differences in two of the books), the amount of the purchase, your shipping information, etc. Please email regarding books so I can calculate shipping for you before you make a purchase. At this time, I am unable to offer free shipping; however, there is obviously free delivery on all eBooks/ digital copies of my work. Any questions? Email: daninterviews@gmail.com
https://www.blurb.com/b/9285005-as-you-were
http://www.lulu.com/shop/daniel-bechum/glass-hysteria/paperback/product-23678690.html
https://www.amazon.co.uk/s?i=digital-text&rh=p_27%3ADaniel+Bechum&s=relevancerank&text=Daniel+Bechum&ref=dp_byline_sr_ebooks_1
https://www.amazon.com/s?k=daniel+bechum&ref=nb_sb_noss
Under Pen Name Anja Absinthe
https://www.amazon.com/Anja-Absinthe/e/B01IF9OO0O?ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1&qid=1578472518&sr=8-1
Here you can find Little By Little, Clean, Dopamine, and the Suicide of a Wallflower. Instant Karma: Just Add Milk is not available on Amazon. I'm unsure as to why, so I need to reach out to them and find out what's up with that. Meanwhile, you can order it off my blurb page!
https://www.blurb.com/user/xxwil26xx
https://www.blurb.com/b/5361456-instant-karma-just-add-milk-anja-absinthe
Check out my merch:
https://www.redbubble.com/de/people/danielsnaps?asc=u
Currently my merch is photo prints, cards, coffee mugs, travel mugs and more featuring my photography from all across Europe!
In the coming months, I'm looking to expand the merch line and include some of my artwork. I need to find someone who can help me to clean up and digitise my pencil drawings. Is that another Dan the Doodlebug in the works? I've not updated that series in 2 years or so. Sorry about that, I've not really drawn all that much or if I've drawn things I've just posted the finished sketches on Instagram. Maybe this year I'll get back into it. Who knows? Either way, I want to do a new calendar for 2021 featuring artwork. I did one for 2019 featuring my photography. I might even do a post card collection. Not quite sure yet. Have some requests? Email me!
My older works will all be updated to reflect my new name. I'm thinking I might want to do a compliation of all my favourite material from every book I've writte, with the exception of the last three that are under my name. I'm also going to be working on creating a joint platform where you can purchase all of my books, merch and everything all in one stop shop. It's a lot of work, but I will get it done...Eventually. I've been wanting to do this for some time now.
Fuck, I made it through another decade with most of me intact. Let's see how I handle 2020 before I start making anymore bigger plans. I'm hoping to have a new release sometime this year, either a full book or a short collection. I've also got a photography project in the year. Maybe I'll do a book of my highs. Thoughts?
During the past 10 years, I've completely modified my body, I came out as transgendered, finally came to terms with my ever confusing sexuality (I'm thinking I might do a blog on that,), wrote 9 books (two of which I've discontinued), created a merch line to sell my art designs/ travel photography and I've been to 25 countries. As I look back on these accomplishments, it's bittersweet. I'm not at the place that I want to be in my life. I'm still struggling in ways I thought I'd have overcome or outgrew. I'm starting to work on things, taking different approaches. These are the good parts I'm talking about.
I've tattooed myself so much that I almost have a complete bodysuit. And to think, I started the decade out with three little tattoos. Now, look where we are! It's hard to imagine myself without tattoos, or I should say this many tattoos. I was so naked back then. I see photos of myself in the various stages of being tattooed, working on my sleeves, my stomach, my chest and it doesn't even look like me. I don't see these images as me, even though I'm aware it is me. During the past 10 years, I also pierced myself. Many of the piercings I've since taken out; my dahlia piercings, my philtrum, both nostrils, my septum. I've kept all my tongue and ear ones, as well as my lip, eyebrow, nipples and my downstairs. I've started transforming my body in new ways, growing into the man I am inside.
I've lost and gained so many people in my life. Paula, Bill, Anja. People I loved deeply and thought I had a future with them. Paula turned out to be a humiliating joke, as did Bill, but Anja. There was something there that was pure magic. She's been gone 6 years now and part of me just wants her to come back. I know that's completely selfish of me. Maybe now she won't be in complete agony anymore. That's what I think about when the idea of missing her comes up. She will always be a part of me, my pen name came from her because I just wanted her to see how important she was to me. I know she knew that.
I met Puff and fell for him in some of the worst ways. I'm addicted to his bullshit. He makes me feel both alive and dead. He's the perfect balance of chubb, cheek and cunty. I've never wanted anyone like this before. I'm not afraid of what my feelings for him mean. He's helped me build up who I am over the past 3 years and he's the best person I ended a decade with. He encourages me. He pushes me. He destroys me. He builds me. He's my everything, the one person who never fails to turn me into nothing. He's a blessing and a curse.
It's been a wild year for me 2019. I made some great friendships, lost some shitty friendships. I'vee learned a few things about myself and some hard truths about those around me. I'm not the same person I started the year as, nevermind the decade. I've grown so much in the past 10 years. I'm a full-grown adult. I've got ao many experiences under my belt that it feels longer than 10 years have passed. I've battled mental illness, almost died several times, overcame physical pain and broke down barriers. Maybe I'll be able to do better in this decade.
You can find my work on Blurb, Lulu and all Amazon sites. If you're unable to order a physical copy of a book or a digital copy of a book, please reach out and I can sort out any difficulties. In that instance, I will have to be paid via Paypal (ask for details) you will pay through the Goods & Services option so you have buyer protection and your order will be shipped out to you via the method/book version you are interested in. When ordering this way, please include the version off of what site (there are differences in two of the books), the amount of the purchase, your shipping information, etc. Please email regarding books so I can calculate shipping for you before you make a purchase. At this time, I am unable to offer free shipping; however, there is obviously free delivery on all eBooks/ digital copies of my work. Any questions? Email: daninterviews@gmail.com
https://www.blurb.com/b/9285005-as-you-were
http://www.lulu.com/shop/daniel-bechum/glass-hysteria/paperback/product-23678690.html
https://www.amazon.co.uk/s?i=digital-text&rh=p_27%3ADaniel+Bechum&s=relevancerank&text=Daniel+Bechum&ref=dp_byline_sr_ebooks_1
https://www.amazon.com/s?k=daniel+bechum&ref=nb_sb_noss
Under Pen Name Anja Absinthe
https://www.amazon.com/Anja-Absinthe/e/B01IF9OO0O?ref=sr_ntt_srch_lnk_1&qid=1578472518&sr=8-1
Here you can find Little By Little, Clean, Dopamine, and the Suicide of a Wallflower. Instant Karma: Just Add Milk is not available on Amazon. I'm unsure as to why, so I need to reach out to them and find out what's up with that. Meanwhile, you can order it off my blurb page!
https://www.blurb.com/user/xxwil26xx
https://www.blurb.com/b/5361456-instant-karma-just-add-milk-anja-absinthe
https://www.redbubble.com/de/people/danielsnaps?asc=u
Currently my merch is photo prints, cards, coffee mugs, travel mugs and more featuring my photography from all across Europe!
In the coming months, I'm looking to expand the merch line and include some of my artwork. I need to find someone who can help me to clean up and digitise my pencil drawings. Is that another Dan the Doodlebug in the works? I've not updated that series in 2 years or so. Sorry about that, I've not really drawn all that much or if I've drawn things I've just posted the finished sketches on Instagram. Maybe this year I'll get back into it. Who knows? Either way, I want to do a new calendar for 2021 featuring artwork. I did one for 2019 featuring my photography. I might even do a post card collection. Not quite sure yet. Have some requests? Email me!
My older works will all be updated to reflect my new name. I'm thinking I might want to do a compliation of all my favourite material from every book I've writte, with the exception of the last three that are under my name. I'm also going to be working on creating a joint platform where you can purchase all of my books, merch and everything all in one stop shop. It's a lot of work, but I will get it done...Eventually. I've been wanting to do this for some time now.
Fuck, I made it through another decade with most of me intact. Let's see how I handle 2020 before I start making anymore bigger plans. I'm hoping to have a new release sometime this year, either a full book or a short collection. I've also got a photography project in the year. Maybe I'll do a book of my highs. Thoughts?
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