My Therapist Abandoned Me
She just ignored me.
She's stopped communication.
I wrote her explaining why I missed the appointment, that I was too fatigued and could not wake up and asked her to reschedule the appointment. She'd not seen me since May due to conflicting schedules, she didn't seem worried despite the last thing that we talked about was me falling apart. She doesn't care. She never cared. What she's done is immoral and illegal. She has a duty of care to me and she's just abandoned me. I'm not happy about this. What makes her think that she's so much better than me? I've not confronted her about this and I'm not sure how to deal with it.
I don't understand what I've done wrong.
Was it the missing of the appointment? I let her know right away and apologised.
This sends me the message that I'm not worth helping. That I'm not worth her time.
That I'm not worth anyone's time.
It can't just be that I have bad luck with therapists or doctors.
There is something fundamentally wrong with me.
I don't mean to be off-putting.
People think I don't try, but I try really hard.
Maybe I'm just trying in all the wrong ways.
I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do; logically, I know that I should try and contact her again but I'm afraid to. I don't want to deal with the rejection all over again. It's possible that it's all just in my head that she hasn't rejected me, but really, what else could it be? I'm at a loss. I'm looking for new ways to try and help myself within the limits I have. I'm not objective when it comes to myself and that is a massive problem. I've helped other people and can give sound advice, but when it comes to myself, I always manage to muck it up. I think it ties into my low self-esteem and the way that I hate myself. Should I report her? I think I should, she breached her duty of care. Call the mental health centre where she works to say something would be a start, but the place is a shithole. All I can do is try there first before moving on.
Has this ever happened to any of you? If so, what did you do to help yourself? I'm looking for suggestions so I don't fly off the handle like I usually do. I started this blog a week ago, but she's not emailed me since the end of July when we booked the appointment. I think she's being an immature cunt about all of this and maybe I am by writing this blog, but she shouldn't get away with doing shit like this.
I don't understand what I've done wrong.
Was it the missing of the appointment? I let her know right away and apologised.
This sends me the message that I'm not worth helping. That I'm not worth her time.
That I'm not worth anyone's time.
It can't just be that I have bad luck with therapists or doctors.
There is something fundamentally wrong with me.
I don't mean to be off-putting.
People think I don't try, but I try really hard.
Maybe I'm just trying in all the wrong ways.
I'm not sure what I'm supposed to do; logically, I know that I should try and contact her again but I'm afraid to. I don't want to deal with the rejection all over again. It's possible that it's all just in my head that she hasn't rejected me, but really, what else could it be? I'm at a loss. I'm looking for new ways to try and help myself within the limits I have. I'm not objective when it comes to myself and that is a massive problem. I've helped other people and can give sound advice, but when it comes to myself, I always manage to muck it up. I think it ties into my low self-esteem and the way that I hate myself. Should I report her? I think I should, she breached her duty of care. Call the mental health centre where she works to say something would be a start, but the place is a shithole. All I can do is try there first before moving on.
Has this ever happened to any of you? If so, what did you do to help yourself? I'm looking for suggestions so I don't fly off the handle like I usually do. I started this blog a week ago, but she's not emailed me since the end of July when we booked the appointment. I think she's being an immature cunt about all of this and maybe I am by writing this blog, but she shouldn't get away with doing shit like this.
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